"This is what I want.."

Stuck in the middle of a war, she didn't know what to do except to stay close with the strangers she knew as family. She came to this unfamiliar, danger-zone land with the hope of helping lives.

However suddenly, hope emerged as a chopper (helicopter), which had her country's flag painted on it, descended just outside the house in the field. Three soldiers heavily armed got out and ran towards the house she was in. Two of them was on the look-out while the other soldier went up to her. He was young but seemed prepared.

Soldier: We received orders to bring you back home safely. We have to go soon.

She felt relieved and safe but was also confused and hesitant.

Soldier: Come on, ma'am, we'll be leaving in approximately 20 minutes. Go get your things.
She looked at him and said: Can I choose not to go?

He paused for a while and looked down.
He looked up again and asked: "Is this what you really want? To die here?"
"No", she said, "I want to die as a martyr."
He was speechless for a moment. He left her to meet with his friend outside.
He came back to her again with his friend who said to her:
"Ma'am, we received orders to fetch you. This isn't a choice. You have to come with us."
She looked down and nodded as her eyes begin to tear up, "I understand."
"I'm sorry", the young soldier said.

She quickly rushed to pack her things and then hugged the woman and her little children whom she lived with, and then said to them:
"InshaaAllaah I'll be back again."
"InshaaAllaah, my love", the old woman said.

She then left with the soldiers and flew back home safely.